Are You Acting From Internal Love — Or Chasing It From Outside?

We talk about love like it’s a thing to find, a feeling to fall into, or a prize we earn if we’re lucky — or good enough.

But what if love isn’t something you get at all?

What if love is something you become and do?

bell hooks, one of the most tender and radical voices on love, tells us that love is not just a feeling — it’s an action. It’s a verb. A practice. And yet, most of us weren’t taught that. We were taught to chase love, to perform for it, to bend and contort ourselves hoping someone would choose us.

We were not taught how to be love.
We were not taught how to do love.
We were taught how to need love.

And so we chase.

The Difference Between Chasing Love and Acting From Love

When we’re chasing love, we’re trying to fill a void. We’re hoping someone else will reflect our worth back to us. We say the “right” things, manage our image, withhold our truth, and call it connection — but deep down, it feels hollow.

It’s easy to mistake attachment or validation for love. But that’s not love. That’s survival.

Acting from love feels entirely different.

When love rises from within, it feels like a steady warmth in your chest — not fireworks or fear. You aren’t waiting for someone to save you or fix the ache. You are showing up in wholeness, offering care, not because you need to get something back, but because that’s who you are. That’s the action of love.

Being Love vs. Doing Love

bell hooks reminds us that love is not passive — it requires doing. But that doing must come from being.

Being love is your inner state.
It’s the stillness you bring to yourself.
It’s feeling grounded in your own enough-ness.
It’s knowing you are worthy, even in your mess.
It’s the energy of grace you hold in your body.

Doing love is the outward expression of that being.
It’s how you speak.
How you listen.
How you show up — especially when it’s hard.

When you are rooted in love internally, your actions reflect that love clearly and consistently. When you’re not rooted in love, even your kindest actions might be driven by fear, control, or longing.

Why Can’t We Feel True Love?

This is a question so many of us carry, quietly and shamefully.
Why can’t I feel it?
Why does love seem so far away?
Why do I push it away even when it’s good?

We often can't feel true love because we’re not present in ourselves. We’ve been taught to seek love out there — in texts, touch, attention, or achievement — but not to recognize it within. If we don’t believe we are lovable, then when love shows up, we question it. We sabotage. We run.

It’s not because we’re broken.
It’s because we’ve been conditioned to doubt love, not trust it.

We’ve been handed ideas of love that are full of control, obligation, sacrifice, and scarcity.
But real love — the kind bell hooks describes — is rooted in freedom, care, responsibility, and commitment. That’s not what many of us grew up witnessing. And so we chase what’s familiar, not what’s true.

A Practice: Begin Again in Love

If you’re noticing patterns where you chase love, or freeze when it arrives, or numb yourself because the ache feels too big — pause.

Breathe.

Place your hand on your heart and ask gently:

• Am I acting from love — or from fear?

• Am I seeking love — or offering it?

• What would it feel like to be love in this moment?

And then begin again.
You don’t have to get it perfect. You just have to return.
To yourself. To your breath. To love as a practice.

A Loving Reminder

You are not behind. You are not too much. You are not incapable of love.
You are unlearning what was never true.
And you are remembering what has always been yours.

Love is not something to earn.
Love is not something to chase.
Love is who you are — and what you choose to do, over and over, in small, brave moments.

And when you stop chasing love… you’ll start becoming it.