Love That My Body Can Trust

For a long time, I didn’t know what safety felt like in love.
Not real safety — the kind my nervous system could recognize.

What I knew was intensity. The ache of wanting to be chosen. The adrenaline of trying to get it right. I confused tension for connection, and chemistry for compatibility. I thought the butterflies in my stomach meant it was love — even when those butterflies were actually my body bracing for loss, rejection, or collapse.

I didn’t yet understand that my body was responding to old stories — old pain dressed up in new packaging. I called it desire. I called it fate. But the truth is, I was often dysregulated and calling it love.

I learned how to disconnect from myself to stay connected to others.
How to quiet my voice to keep the peace.
How to be easy to love — even if it meant abandoning what was true for me.

This wasn’t weakness. It was survival. It was responding to my conditioning that taught me I needed to be less so I could be loved more. 

I adapted to love that required performance. I hardened in relationships that didn’t feel emotionally safe. And eventually, I couldn’t tell the difference between being chosen and being well.

Healing, for me, has been the long, slow work of remembering that love is not supposed to feel like a constant negotiation with myself.

It’s been about coming back to my body, not as something to override, but as a source of truth.
Learning to listen to the subtle signs: the clenching, the tension, the shallow breath that used to signal danger — even when nothing “bad” was happening.

My nervous system was doing its job. It remembered what my mind tried to explain away.

So I stopped trying to override those signals.
I stopped chasing relationships where I couldn’t feel fully myself.
And I began the work of redefining love — not in my head, but in my whole body.

Now, I ask different questions:
Does my body feel safe here?
Can I stay soft in your presence?
Can I rest, speak, move, feel without shrinking?

This kind of love is quiet, but it runs deep.
It’s not performative. It’s not chaotic.
It doesn’t demand that I prove my worth.
It lets me stay connected — to myself and to you — without choosing between the two.

This is what wholeness feels like: not being perfect, but being present with all of me.
My nervous system no longer needs to armor up to survive closeness.
I don’t have to disappear to be loved.

There is room for my truth.
Room for my softness.
Room for all of me to belong.

Love that my body can trust isn’t always the loudest.
But it’s the kind that lasts — because it doesn’t cost me myself.

💜 If you’re learning to trust your body’s wisdom too, you’re not alone.

This is the work of becoming whole — of remembering yourself back into safety, one honest moment at a time.

Here are a few gentle questions to take with you:

• When do I feel most like myself — soft, safe, and true?

• What does my body know about the difference between survival and safety?

• In what relationships do I feel like I can stay connected to me, even when I’m close to them?

• What kinds of love invite me to soften, not shrink?

And if you’re in the Denver area, I’d love to invite you to join me in person.

🌟 Third Annual Women’s Empowerment Event
🗓 Saturday, July 19 | 10 AM – 4 PM
📍 Cleaver Girl, RiNo District, Denver, CO

I’ll be there speaking on this very topic at 11am — how to return to your nervous system, reclaim your softness, and restore your inner safety in love.
And I’ll be offering two powerful tools to help you take your power back — from the inside out.

Come say hi. 👋 Come be reminded of your wholeness. ✨
You don’t have to do this alone.